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Saturday, March 10, 2007


what's my problem?
ah.
i really do not know.
i keep having mood swings these days. like, i just had one a minute ago.
and bad. it was targeted at my mum. this time about holiday free time.
a few days ago i was depressed about math.
and now, all i can think of is play play play. free time free time free time.
i think i'm hopeless.
i can't even decide what i want to do in a mere one week of holidays.
what more my life?
i can't set my mind down to focus on revision, to study, to imnprove math.
and this is getting tougher day by day.
i can feel my mental strings snapping at awkward times, at times when i don't even want to.
i think there is too much going on in my life.
trying to be good in stuff i think i'm good at, failing and blaming myself.
trying to create a good class blog, carry out surveys on time, let poon be satisfied with her class chair, but again i keep failing.
and its not just my studies and my responsibilities.
its the distractions.
the shows, the serials, sims, everything. the exhilaration of the start of the holidays, the unbalanced mind i have.
it takes just one holiday to get my cycle upset.
i don't know what on earth i was doing just now, shouting at my mum about the timetable I PLANNED for MYSELF.
yes I PLANNED IT.
so what on earth am i unhappy about?
be realistic priscilla.
you cannot aim to finish watching hana kimi, AND play sims, AND want to revise.
its choices priscilla.
why am i able to think sensibly now and not just now?
if i had this calm and rationale mind just now, this whole tirade i've started would not exist.
if i can cure myself of this terrible mood swing, i will stop making people hurt.
i will stop deceiving and hurting myself.
i will stop thinking and focusing on unimportant things at the wrong time.
okay.
i need to pray quietly. now.

gave my heart */ on 10:27:00 PM